In a recent episode of BET’s “Ruff Ryders Chronicles,” DMX got emotional as he opened up about his mental health issues — more specifically, his multiple personalities.
Around the 2:38 mark, the interviewer asked X about his different sides. “They’re different things. There’s a few things, a few people in me — they get me through life,” he replied.
The interviewer then asked X what he wanted people to know about his other personalities. “I wouldn’t want anyone to know anything,” the “X Gon’ Give It To Ya” emcee said. “I don’t talk about them. You already got me talking about them. Nope.”
“They’re there to get me through life. I don’t know if I made them or if God gave them to me, or maybe circumstances and situations did,” the New York native added, while beginning to get choked up.
Tashera Simmons, DMX’s ex-wife, then said that the “X” personality “was created to protect ‘Earl,’” which is the rapper’s first name. “‘Earl’ was the child that could’ve been before his dad left and his mom just didn’t know how to handle him. ‘X’ was created to protect ‘Earl’ — to take on all the trauma of his childhood,” she said. “He’s the angry one. ‘DMX’ is the entertainer — he’s another protector of ‘Earl,’ but so much nicer.”
“‘X’ is the bad guy. That’s not who I am. I’m not the person the media portrays me to be,” he said. He also admitted to suffering from bi-polar disorder and claimed that he no longer knew how to separate “Earl” from “X.”
“I used to be really clear on who was what and what characteristics each personality had,” he continued. “But I don’t know. At this point, I’m not even sure there is a difference. I’m ‘Earl’ when I’m with my children. I miss my children, I miss my children.”
Check out the “Ruff Ryders Chronicles” episode below.