After suffering a miscarriage in 2020, Chrissy Teigen let it be known that her late son is never too far from her side. While speaking to Scary Mommy about her motherhood experience, she revealed that she brings his ashes along when she and her husband, John Legend, take trips with the family. The action, she explained, helps her children, Luna and Miles, as they process the loss of their younger brother.

“[When] we go on a vacation or something, they always say, ‘Don’t forget baby Jack.’ And then I have to pack him up,” Teigen said of her children’s desire to travel with their late sibling.

“And then when we get to where we’re going, they’re like, ‘Oh my gosh, he must be thirsty.’ This might sound crazy to people, but they’ll put a little glass of water next to his little box of ashes. And they really love being a part of it.”

Teigen shared her pregnancy loss with fans after miscarrying at 20 weeks last September. The model reportedly had a complicated pregnancy, which included a partial placenta abruption diagnosis. Though she broke the news to her children, she said that they understood better after the family received the ashes.

“I think, that they started to be able to say, ‘OK, this happened. Here he is now. He didn’t make it,’” Teigen explained. “It was something for them to be able to put a story to, where we could say, ‘OK Jack is in here and he is going to stay with us. And maybe one day we might release him.’”

She also managed to find a positive spin to the loss, noting that the miscarriage made her pay close attention to her health and how “precious life is.”

“With Jack, I needed to learn that life is so precious. The way I was treating my body was not great with the alcohol. And then even before I had gotten pregnant, I just wasn’t living a healthy life,” said Legend’s wife. “I was the kind of person that made fun of working out… I feel like if I got to have the chance to have him, I wouldn’t have learned how precious life is and how precious my body is. And now I look at my body as something I can’t yell at and can’t be upset with. It’s gotten through so much… what it has persevered through has been incredible. Our bodies are just hell-bent on getting us to survive every day.”