Nef the Pharaoh has released a statement following the tragic double-murder suicide of his older sister and young nephew. According to Vallejo, CA news station Kron 4 News, a man shot and killed The Big Chang Theory rapper’s sister and her 4-year-old son before turning the gun on himself. All three of them were discovered with multiple gunshot wounds by Vallejo police on Thursday (Feb. 13).

“Words can’t even explain the pain I’m feeling RN,” the California-native wrote on Instagram, along with a series of photos of his sister, nephew and other family members. Nef’s post also included text messages from his late sister, which tragically showed that she had been planning a get-together with all of her siblings.

“My flesh, my blood, my big sister & nephew,” he continued. “This sh*t ain’t NEVER gon be right, how do I explain to my son he’ll never be able to talk to his TT & cousin again. as I sit here surrounded by my siblings I can’t help but think , this is all you wanted.”

Vallejo authorities have identified his sister’s murderer as Jacoby Brooks, who was reportedly her ex-boyfriend.

“I love you more then LIFE big sister, & I’ll miss giving my nephew hugs & kisses,” Nef’s post read. “I keep walking around the house thinking I’m gonna see your smile any minute. I feel like sh*t cause I wasn’t there to protect you & my nephew, I love you guys SOOOOOOOOOOOO much , sh*t don’t feel right saying RIP.”

Back in August, the rapper released his Mushrooms & Coloring Books LP, which included collaborations with Tyga, Slimmy B, LOE Gino, ShooterGang Kony, Scando The Darklord, Saba Baby, Rexx Life Raj and ALLBLACK. Most recently, he dropped off his collaborated single “Cloth Talk” with Takeoff last November.

See Nef’s his full Instagram post below.