It’s been a little over a week since everyone heard the devastating news that Kobe Bryant, his 13-year-old daughter Gianna Bryant, and seven others were killed in a helicopter crash.

Kobe’s wife Vanessa is continuing to open up on social media about her struggles with grieving their deaths.

In an Instagram post on Monday (Feb. 10), Vanessa wrote, “I’ve been reluctant to put my feelings into words. My brain refuses to accept that both Kobe and Gigi are gone. I can’t process both at the same time. It’s like I’m trying to process Kobe being gone but my body refuses to accept my Gigi will never come back to me. It feels wrong. Why should I be able to wake up another day when my baby girl isn’t being able to have that opportunity?! I’m so mad. She had so much life to live.”

She continued, “Then I realize I need to be strong and be here for my 3 daughters. Mad I’m not with Kobe and Gigi but thankful I’m here with Natalia, Bianka and Capri. I know what I’m feeling is normal. It’s part of the grieving process. I just wanted to share in case there’s anyone out there that’s experienced a loss like this. God I wish they were here and this nightmare would be over. Praying for all of the victims of this horrible tragedy. Please continue to pray for all.”

Vanessa included a video from SLAM magazine that showed Gianna doing what she loved, playing basketball. The footage also showed Kobe, who was the coach for Gianna’s team.

The memorial service for Kobe and Gianna will be held on Feb. 24 at Staples Center. The other victims of the helicopter crash will also be honored as well.

We continue to send our thoughts and prayers to Vanessa, their daughters, and the families of the other victims. Take a look at her post below.