After announcing she’d “quit” music last year following the delay of her debut album, and then sharing an incorrect release date for it, SZA’s Ctrl was finally delivered back in June to applause and acclaim.

But now, in an interview with The Guardian, SZA has come forward to explain why it took so long.

She first admitted that a bit of uncertainty can lead to overreaction, saying:

“I freestyle everything, all the way down. And I listen back and think, ‘What’s shitty?’ And if something’s too shitty and I can’t put my finger on it, and I think, ‘Wow, this sucks to me,’ then I get way frustrated, and usually scrap the song.”

She then revealed that she has a poor sense of time:

“Everyone I’ve ever dated have been complaining about that. ‘What? I haven’t seen you in three days, relax!’ They’re like, ‘I haven’t seen you in six months, what are you talking about?’ But that’s just the way it is.”

Finally, she shared that someone from Top Dawg Entertainment–she doesn’t know who–eventually took her songs from a safe in their studio, likely so she would stop tinkering with them.

“They cut me off. They just took my hard drive from me. That was all. I just kept f–king everything up. I just kept moving shit around. I was choosing from 150, 200 songs, so I’m just like, ‘Who knows what’s good any more?’ [This ‘Ctrl’ isn’t necessarily the ‘Ctrl’ [I] would have put out[.]] No, absolutely not. Any longer and I probably wouldn’t … I’m also driving myself f–king crazy, so I don’t know. Give me another month and it would have been something completely different.”